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Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Tell you something about myself
Ok, enough for the introduction of this blog, I'm gonna truly start my first OFFICIAL blog post.
Unlike my old blog that I created during my elementary school years, for this blog, I'm gonna use it to show who I really am.
So, I guess, if you are reading this blog post, you probably have read the previous two introduction blog posts, right? I assumed you did. If not, please do, so you know the spirit of this blog. Anyways, so.. the point is I'm gonna use this blog just so I can say stuff about myself that I don't feel like sharing them on Facebook, and sometimes, I'm even too hesitate to show/tell it to my friends. Im not saying that Im a shy person or something, sometimes I just dont feel like showing them to my friends. There's always that weird feeling that pops up to my mind when Im about to say it, but I just couldnt. Thanks to this blog, Im like totally invisible to you, I dont need to see your face, I dont need to know exactly what your reaction is when I say I what I feel like.So.... I wanna tell my first story. Probably the first thing that pops up to my mind is my first year in the US.
The year of 2008-2009 to be more precise. Ive just graduated from elementary school. I was brought to a Middle School in Walnut, CA. It was just totally out of control. I never knew how weird it would be to transfer to a completely clueless school, where foreigners are all around. It was just weird, 'nuff said. I remember clearly that it was the first day of school. My first class was PE, of course. My brother brought me to the fellowship hall, as it was said thats where we meet on the first day. So I sat there, seeing my brother leaving. My eyes got red, I am pretty much clueless of way, and tears drop down. I guess I just had that kind of feeling like, " dont leave me here, this is weird, why leave me here, Im completely clueless". Cause, Ive never transferred to another school since kindergarten! How in the world am I suppose to socialize with people? Not just any people, FOREIGNERS! I grew up in Taiwan, what do you expect out of my English ability?.... I guess I just have to find a way.... I tried to talk to the girl beside me. She was cute :) and cheerful. And seemed to be pretty popular in the class. She was chilling with her friends, sharing her summer stories. And when she paused, I asked her for the direction to my next class with poor English grammar(of course), she was friendly, and reply "(Smile) I'll show you later!" And she goes back to her conversation with her friends. Later, I met a Korean girl. She seemed to be pretty lonely. So I talked to her. She was pretty nice to me :) She said it was her first year here too. I guess I had a weird way of socializing, so I asked " would you like to be friends?" (AWKWARD) I dont know why, its the only thing that came up to my mind at that moment. And luckily, she replied with a kind smile, " Haha, sure!" And then I showed her my schedule and she showed me hers, we figured that we have the same exact schedule. We soon become friends. :)
And the other stories are for next blog post! Coming sooner than you think! :)
As always, comment what you think!! :)
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這是一個訓練老師閱讀英文的機會,
ReplyDelete我看到你剛到一個地方的陌生感
也很高興你認識了新朋友
能夠適應環境對你來說真的不容易
老師記得你是很開朗的小孩(不好意思沒教過你)
能夠打開心房接納新的變化才會有新的成長
人生總是有太多我們無法預期的會發生
準備一顆有彈性的心,接納任何的改變
會讓我們生活的更如意,下面這兩句是什麼意思
請問小老師:
OFFICIAL blog post
pops up to my mind
Hi 老師
Delete這篇文章是在敘述我在到奎山之前在美國生活的情景。有點是像flash back(回想)當初這樣子。當時在美國這個陌生的地方,有很多事都要整新開始。第一個禮拜會感覺很難交到朋友,因為不知道美國人是喜歡什麼樣的朋友,有時候甚至想過要改成別人想要看到的我。但我後來領悟,做自己才是正確的,也不需要去隱藏什麼。因為美國人都蠻隨合的。 而且 神 也讓我慢慢的遇到跟我興趣相同的朋友們。做自己才是正確的,不需要為別人改變自己,算是我想用這個部落格傳達的訊息。 :)
OFFICIAL blog post- 正式的部落格的文章。在這裡是指我介紹完部落格的第一篇正式進入主題的文章。
pops up to my mind- 我腦袋裡所想到的第一件事。
謝謝老師來參觀,有興趣可以常來學英文,這個部落格有點像是心情的抒發,讓我從不曾和任何人提起的事,告訴大家做自己才是對的。 :)
這是老師的一篇文章,請欣賞
ReplyDelete痛苦是因為不敢「不乖」
吃飯時和我兒子進行哲學對談
為什麼我們台灣人要那麼累?
小孩讀那麼多書補成這樣?大人
上班的時數是世界第一?大家變成
考試和工作的機器?
楷逸說因為內心恐懼,不敢質疑權感,
不敢和別人不同,當你有特別的想法
時,一些人給你意見或反對,你就會
受不了,最後只好回到安全的範圍和
大家一樣。
我認同這個想法,我們強調大家要統一
,符合某一個傳統的標準,而這個大家
的共同的標準莫過於「成績」和「成就」
即使你的特殊的能力,過人的才能
或深沉的智慧,但是人家要看的是你數學
幾分,考第幾名?成績好起似乎已
成為基本條件,其他重要的人生價值
都放一邊,大家都不希望做奇怪的人。
也因為這樣太在意傳統標準和社會制約
,所以我們無法勇敢的做自己,做自己
並不是要革命,而是靈性對自由的選擇
它是得到生命喜悅的基本條件。它是在
必要時向社會的錯誤觀念說不的勇氣。
我們太在意「成功」,其實在意成功也是對
的,但是成功的定義不應只有外在的成就
每天過得很自在,熱愛生命、做自己也是成功
所以台灣人活得很痛苦的原因是對成功的定義
太狹隘,只把它鎖在成績和成就上。然後
讓許多有特殊專長和心靈自由的人無法做自己。
一些很乖、聽話、有成就、有穩定工作的人
不見得是自在的人,因為他無法勇敢的表
達對這個錯誤的社會共業的真正看法,
也不敢堅持原本心中的熱愛,屈就於現實。
雖然衣食無缺,生活安定,但是心靈匱乏。
然後用「不要太理想化」來否定那些追求
靈性自由的人,合理化自己追求解脫的怯懦
會很苦很累是因為,不敢質疑權威,甘心被
被一些「成績第一」「競爭力第一」
「有錢有權最重要」「漂亮什麼都行」…的觀念
洗腦綁架,不願意正視他們的錯誤,回歸原始
的單純與快樂。
要過得好,就要有勇氣敢懷疑父母師長社會
,並不是要你去罵人,為反對而反對,而是
溫和的悍衛真理,守在心靈自由,不要被社會的
錯誤觀念同化,雖然你可能會沒那麼的
有成就、有才能有錢有權、功成名就
但是你可以天天都很開心自在。
有人可能會說,你不是說要接納現實,是的
每天的生活即使再困苦也可以用覺察當下
的方式變得自在一些,我們要知足感恩。
但是如果已經工作過勞失去健康,
被家暴得很嚴重、看西醫讓病更惡化,
逼小孩讀書壞了親子關係、美容讓
身體出現一大堆副作用…時
我們還要維持現狀嗎?
有勇氣的為自己活一次,
有勇氣的堅持快樂一次
這樣我們就不會一直對自己失望。
一再錯失解脫的機會。
謝謝老師的分享。我對這篇文章感觸蠻深的。因為前陣子就曾經有被所為的成就給困在小框框裡。但現在我發現,擁有完美的課內成績是不能造就一個人。可以看看我今天PO的新文,因為和這個想法有點關聯。完美的成績雖然能夠給一個人短暫的高興,得到一個暫時的朋友,確不能帶給人打從內心發出的喜悅。最近領悟到,我們不應該活在別人設定的小圈圈,要勇敢活出自己。
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