Look into the Mirror

So, I wanted to talk more about the movie Mulan, since there are so many spirit of ANTS that were shown through the movie.

Mulan is the perfect character that we ANTS should look up to, and try to apply her braveness in ourselves. In the song Reflection, which I will link to below, the song is just the perfect spirit of ANTS. Staring into mirror, I sometimes feel, is this image the real me? Am I suppose to treat myself like a nerd, just because I happened to get pretty good scores in school almost all the time? Am I suppose to hide true-self from the world, just to become the image that people expect me to be? Or am I suppose to change to become someone who is really inside? I doubt my reflection sometimes. I think I forgot who I am after social life came into my life as a trouble.

I think I don't see how social problems came into my life. Is it because I so felt like there was a need to fit into others? Or is it because I just didn't know how to socialize with people my age. Seriously, I think people my age, I rarely find one that is mature. Most of them cares about how people feel about their appearance. They dress up nicely all the time. They put make up on themselves to feel a sense of confidence. They buy famous brand accessories so they can fit into the rich people(normally the popular) ones. For girls specifically, wearing shorts so short as if they are only wearing underwear. Hair bangs to follow up with fashion, or just want to look exactly like their friends. I don't know what is the point of doing all that, just to get confidence, I suppose?

 I just don't feel like people my age know exactly the value of themselves. They try to pretend someone who they ARE NOT! I don't like putting up make ups cause it not only looks weird on me, but also, that image is NOT ME. I don't like wearing shorts because I'm trying to study in school not socializing and attracting boys(for crying out loud there). I don't buy famous brands, because I'm not trying to pretend I'm rich, and what is the purpose of that? Wasting Money in my sense. Hair bangs? NO! It stitches my eyes, and in fact, many girls just have that so they can cover their pimples... What I've been told though, bangs cover our forehead, and our forehead is said to be the center of a person, in Chinese tradition, and if we decided to cover the center, we are not showing generosity. I love the idea for not having bangs. I feel confident about myself, I don't need to be someone else, pretend to fit into a group, so I can feel confident. I don't need friends who only likes me because I'm "seemed like" them. I want my reflection to be who I really am. Just a typical girl who studies hard in school, and try to be useful of her time in school.

Sometimes I'm tagged if I'm just a nerd running around in school studying. But that's not who I am. I don't want to look like others just so I can feel confident for having friends. After that breakthrough about not try to pretend someone else to get friends, I finally see the reflection that show who I truly am, unique girl who doesn't look exactly like her friends, a girl who shows who she really is.

Mulan craved to show her unique side, speak her own mind, and don't want to pretend like a girl when she felt in her heart that she likes to do what men are doing. She was forced to pretend like a girl. Why is people my age doing completely opposite? Is confident for having friends more important to have confident because of who we are? I don't understand that I guess....

For song of the day, of course, Reflection by Co Co Lee from the Mulan movie.
Just think deeply into those lyrics, and look in the mirror, are you who you really are, are you being yourself on the outside of you?

As always, leave me a comment about anything. In particular, did you see yourself in the mirror, what do you think? Or even just if you like the song? :)